KUALA LUMPUR: Waktu kerja yang panjang dan bebanan tugas menyebabkan ramai doktor pelatih yang mengikuti housemanship di hospital kerajaan mengalami stres serta tekanan perasaan sehingga boleh menjejaskan mutu perkhidmatan kepada pesakit dan masa depan karier mereka.Tekanan yang dihadapi juga menyebabkan ada yang berhasrat menceburi bidang kerja lain kerana tidak mampu menyerap bebanan bekerja sehingga 90 jam seminggu.
Tanggal 27 Mei 2011, aku diduga dengan sebuah ujian hebat yang bukan calang-calang, kukira ini antara uijan yang paling hebat pernah melandaku setakat hidupku selama hampir 25 tahun ini.
Allah telah mengujiku dengan menganugerahkan Distinction dalam final professional exam, sebuah ujian nikmat yang tak pernah kupinta, tak pernah ku sangka-sangka. Bahkan sebelum professional exam, aku sudahpun bersedia utk menghadapi apa sahaja kemungkinan setelah kuusaha sehabis daya.
Selama berbulan-bulan aku memohon dalam doaku, “Ya Allah izinkanlah kami satu batch lulus professional exam, itu pintaku ya Allah, Kau qabulkanlah”
Namun hanya beberapa hari sebelum exam, doaku bertukar, “Ya Allah, kurniakanlah apa yang Kau Tahu terbaik utk kami. Andainya gagal dalam professional exam itu yang terbaik untukku, maka aku bersedia menerimanya, kerana Engkau Maha Tahu. Namun Kau terbitkanlah redha dan sabar dalam hatiku”
Dan saat itulah, baru aku merasai kemanisan tawakkal yang sebenar-benarnya. Bilamana kita berserah sepenuh hati pada Allah... dan kita gantungkan semua harapan padaNya, sedang kita bersedia menerima apapun ketetapan yang Allah Tahu terbaik utk kita, sekalipun ianya pahit di hati kita, buruk di mata manusia...
Sesuatu yang nampak impossible, bilamana Allah mengatakan ‘kun fayakun’, maka terjadilah perkara yang paling mustahil sekalipun.
Awalnya kurasakan, aku tidak ingin pun distinction untuk diriku sendiri, apatah lagi bila ia mampu menerbitkan penyakit-penyakit hati yang tidak diingini. Namun andai distinction ni untuk Islam, untuk dakwah, ku berdoa moga Allah kurniakan yang terbaik. Tak penting pun bagiku, distinction atau tidak. Yang lebih penting adalah menjadi Dr dengan attitude yang distinction, dan seperti yang kunyatakan dalam ‘speech bidan terjunku’, yang paling penting adalah distinction di sisi Allah, dan itulah yang seharusnya menjadi target utama kita semua, insyaAllah...
Semoga kita semua dapat menjadi Dr luarbiasa, yang bukan setakat menyembuh manusia dengan izin Allah, tapi sebagai ‘agen’ Allah untuk menyembuh ummah dari segala penyakitnya, dan gemilangkan Islam di muka bumi ini... Ameen!
A bit sharing on the 4-VS-1 VIVA session...
Examiner: What is the current most common Ca in Malaysia?
Me: Male – colorectal; female – breast Ca
Examiner: Is there anything you can do for common Ca?
Examiner: What are the pre-requisites before you do screening?
- We need to have data, i.e. the Ca is common
- The Ca is treatable, if not curative pun we can offer treatment modalities
- The screening tool is available, with acceptably high SPECIFICITY & SENSITIVITY
Examiner: What can you offer in screening for breast ca?
Me: US if <35y/o. Mammogram if >35y/o
Examiner: How frequent do you screen?
Me: Generally yearly beginning at the age of 40-59, since the incidence is highest in those age-group, then can probably reduce the frequency
Examiner: What are the disadvantage of mammogram
Me: radiation, especially if done yearly
Examiner: What else can you offer other than imaging?
Me: Genetic studies e.g. BRCA 1, BRCA 2
Examiner: So, would you offer a prophylactic mastectomy if they have BRCA 1 & BRCA 2 genes?
Me: (Owh, ni soalan dpt masa seminar breast Ca masa muda2 preclinical dulu. Soalan yang ditanya oleh wani Ca). Erm, that’s a very controversial issue (jawapan politic). I think, 1st we have to counsel the patient (goreng...), advice on yearly screening and regular BSE ke, if a lump is detected, then...
Examiner: Nevermind, I agree with you that it is a very controversial issue. How about the screening for colon Ca?
Me: For low risk group, advice start at the age of 45 or at least 50. For high risk group (e.g. FAP, HNPCC); FAP screen at the 10 years old, HNPCC start screening for Ca at the age which the 1st family member develop Ca
Examiner: How do you screen? You don’t do colonoscopy in everyone do you?
Me: No, we can offer FOBT
Examiner: How often?
Me: Same, depending upon low & high risk group
O&G (tak ingat sangat, sorry)
Examiner: Tell me what you know about cervical cancer. The pathology behind it.
Examiner: What are the treatments available
Examiner: Prevention? – HPV vaccination
Examiner: How does the vaccine work?
Examiner: 39 y/o Malay gentleman, come with palpitation. You check his BP, it is 150/90. Persistently high. What do you think?
Me: I’d like to ask further Hx, PE... (Sebenarnya examiner nak dengar Pheochromocytoma but I was blur...)
Examiner: How do you treat AF?
Me: Rate & rhythm control, bla.. bla.. bla..
Examiner: Other drug in treating AF?
Examiner: How do you administer warfarin, monitoring, etc...
Examiner: If patient refuse drugs, how do you treat? – radio-something... err, can’t remember, never heard of it
Examiner: What is the latest drug to treat AF in the market now? – Don’t know (tak ingat Dato’ mention ubat apa)
Examiner: Since 2008, you know that there have been changes in the immunization schedule in Malaysia. What are the changes, and why?
Me: Hep B previously 0,2,3,5 months, currently 0,1,6 months (more effective?). Dulu 3 in 1, now 5 in 1. Dulu OPV, now IPV (less vaccine-associated poliomyelitis). Dulu cellular pertussis, now acellular (less side-effects). I can’t remember the exact reasons...banyak goreng...
Examiner: Let’s say you are a houseman in the ward, there’s this boy with thalassemia, come for blood transfusion. Blood running, you wait for 10 minutes, patient ok. So you go to your room to take a rest. Suddenly the SN call and told you, “Dr, this patient develop sudden HGF with chills & rigors!” What are you going to do?
Me: I would go to the patient, assess the ABC...
Examiner: No, what are you going to tell the SN there and then on the phone?
Me: STOP the transfusion
Examiner: OK. You go to the patient and examine, he has urticaria rashes all over the body. What to do?
Me: Give IV Hydrocortisone?
Examiner: How long does it take for IV hydrocortisone to work?
Me: I’m not sure
Examiner: 2-3 hours. So what else can you offer, one with more immediate effect?
Me: IV adrenaline
Examiner: OK. How else can you administer adrenaline?
Examiner: How else?
Me: Errr.. I’ve never heard of any oral preparation of adrenaline...?
ExaminerS: Gelak berjemaah. The answer was subcutaneous.
This distinction does not mean I’m smarter, neither am I any better in any way. Allah yang bagi, everything was by His Help, His Will, His plan.
"This is by the Grace of my Lord - to test me whether I am grateful or ungrateful! And whoever is grateful, truly, his gratitude is for (the good of) his ownself and whoever is ungrateful, certainly! My Lord is Rich and Bountiful." (An-Naml: 40)
Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli haal.
***Special special specialll thanks to najwa, naz & nabilah who provided a mock VIVA for us all-me, maryam & AJ- it was really really helpful!
Next came the short cases. My first shortcase was a uterus larger than date. The first time I examined the patient, I was ‘kicked’ by the fetus at the right iliac fossa. Initially I wrongly diagnosed the patient with polyhydromnios.
Examiner: Do you think in polyhydromnios, patient can be lying comfortably like this?
Examiner: Would you like to examine again?
Me: OK. Minta maaf kak, boleh saya periksa semula?
The second time I examined the patient, her second baby kicked me at the left hypochondriac region. OK. Alhamdulillah, again Allah helped me by giving a clue. Padahal tak rasa pun multiple poles! This has to be a multiple pregnancy. It was a twin.
Examiner: How do you manage this patient?
Me: I would like to know the patient’s chief complaint
Examiner: Patient is comfortable, no complaint
Me: In this case I would like to prolong the pregnancy until term. Provided that this is not a MCMA twin, and the leading twin is in cephalic presentation, I would like to attempt vaginal delivery and anticipate the complications associated with twin pregnancy including PPH (maternal) due to overdistension of the uterus and...
Examiner: OK2. How do you classify twins?
Me: According to zygosity, chorionicity, amniocity
Examiner: If you have a twin pregnancy, which one would you prefer?
Me: DCDA, since it is associated with the least complications
Examiner: What complications do you mean?
Me: TTTS for MCDA, cord accidents for MCMA...
I had a CVS examination for my 2nd short case, the patient had a raised JVP, lower limb oedema, (and collapsing pulse which I failed to detect)... He had a displaced apex beat, thrills, various murmurs, MR, TR & AR. But I only detected MR & TR. Since he had multiple findings, I spent almost 8 minutes on examination alone, there were not much time left to discuss.
Examiner: So Dx?
Me: MR & TR and patient is in failure
Examiner: Only MR & TR? How about pulmonary area?
Examiner: OKlah nevermind (he actually had an AR also, according to Dr. Hasnur). Differential?
Me: VSD, but unlikely since patient is old, but it can occur due to MI rupturing the septum
Examiner: So you say patient is in failure, give him one advice.
Me: Fluid restriction?
My third case was an orthopaedic case.
Examiner: Examine the left lower limb
Me: (I asked permission to be on patient’s left side, and then I presented by running commentary) There were limb length discrepancy, muscle wasting, old scar. PLUS old sinus. No active signs of inflammation. I proceeded with FEEL & MOVE (range of movement). Positive Galeazzi’s sign.
Examiner: How many types of scar?
Me: Two – from the lesion & from the external fixator
Examiner: What do you want to do next?
Me: Calculate the true length
Examiner: OK, lain?
Me: I would like to attempt to move the limb. There was a pseudojoint at the distal third of left tibia, moveable and PAINLESS
Examiner: Ok. What is your Dx?
Me: Non-union of distal third of left tibia secondary to OM
Examiner: What are the factors affecting bone healing?
Me: Can be divided into bone factor, patient factor, surgeon factor... bla bla bla...
Examiner: What do you think was the problem with the patient?
Me: Infection, probably OM
Examiner: How did he get the infection?
Me: He may have had an open fracture through which infection was introduced...
Examiner: How do you know he had an open fracture?
Me: He had an external fixator (from the scar)
Examiner: Ok, I agree. What else was the patient’s problem?
Me: Hmm, maybe patient factor, uncontrolled DM?
Examiner: Hmm, OKlah, what else?
Examiner: Look at the calf. Do you think the soft tissue was enough to cover his fracture?
Me: Oh, insufficient soft tissue cover.
Examiner: OK. Dah, cukuplah...
Alhamdulillah, I have never felt this calm in any exam before this (I mean, I was magically calm during the professional exam.. But before the exam, Allah jelah yang tahu...). In this exam, I felt confident, well-directed, Alhamdulillah my answers were mostly smooth, and at instances I even had ‘speech diarrhoea’ which almost never occurred before...! At one point I did not feel like myself, it felt like an external force was controlling my every movement and sayings. And NO, I do not have any other Schneiderian first rank symptoms. I just felt like Allah was with me in my every step, He was eyes with which I used to observe, He was my hand with which I examined the patients, He was my legs with which I walked, He was my tongue with which I presented and answered the questions, seriously! I did not feel like myself. Allah helped me all along, Alhamdulillah, thumma Alhamdulillah...
“My servant constantly approaches Me through supererogatory acts of worship until I love him, and when I love him, I become His eyes with which he sees, his hands with which he holds, and his legs with which he walks.” In another version, the wording is: “So through Me he hears, through Me he sees, and through Me he understands.” (Bukhari)
Tidak ada kedekatan hambaKu yang lebih Aku sukai melainkan dengan apa-apa yang Aku wajibkan kepadanya. Kemudian, hambaKu masih mendekatkan diri kepadaKu dengan amalan sunnah sehingga aku mencintainya. Apabila Aku sudah mencintainya, maka Akulah yang akan menjadi pandangannya ketika dia melihat. Dan Aku yang akan menjadi kakinya ketika dia melangkah. Apabila dia meminta perlindungan kepadaKu maka pasti aku lindungi. Dan apabila dia meminta ampunanKu pasti Aku ampuni. (Bukhari)May we all become those whom He loves...
My clinical examination was scheduled on Wednesday, so I have a back-to-back continuous exam one day after the other without a break – a break which I badly wanted to prepare for my clinical examination. But Allah knows best, Wednesday is my exam day. The morning before clinical exam, I could not take any food despite feeling very hungry for not eating even from the day before. I could not tolerate even a sip of water. Wretching is common in any clinical exam, therefore consuming any amount of food or drink carries a high risk of regurgitation or worse off, vomiting.
So I went to the exam with an empty stomach, a tachycardic heart, a laboured ventilation, and a mounting tawakkal only to Allah. I called my parents to ask for their prayers as well.
In the quarantine room before my longcase, I flipped through the topic ‘Nephrotic Syndrome’ from the Paediatrics Protocol, deep down hoping that I would NOT get a Paediatric case since Paeds was the least I prepared for. So I was brought to the exam hall, with “Allahumma yassir, wa la tu’assir” repeatedly chanted. When the screen was uncovered, there laid a boy with a Cushingoid face, “Hah, a Paediatrics case!”. Again, Allah knows best. And subhanallah, it was a case of Nephrotic syndrome, which I skimmed through just before the longcase. The memories of my previous Paediatrics exam came flashing back as I recalled Prof Wahab’s advices.
This poor boy had steroid-resistant nephrotic syndrome. The questions asked were directly from the Paediatrics protocol. Alhamdulillah Allah helped me answer the questions well. I also stressed on social aspect of the patient – his deteriorating academic performance, steroid side-effects on his daily activities, declining health, family support, financial problems, effect of the illness to patient and his family, etc. I think these had managed to capture the examiner’s attention.
Among the questions asked were:
- Pathophysiology – starting from loss of negative charges, etc
- Secondary causes of nephrotic syndrome
- Complications of nephrotic syndrome
- Complications of steroids
- Difference between stunted and arrested growth
- Surgical complication (Asked by Dato’ J) – spontaneous bacterial peritonitis
- Meaning of remission, relapse, frequent relapse, steroid dependant, steroid resistance, etc
- How to manage relapse
- Histological types of nephrotic syndrome
- Side effects of cyclosporin, cyclophosphamide
- Mechanism of action of cyclosporin, cyclophosphamide
Alhamdulillah, Allah eased my long case.
Please excuse me for the delay in sharing my Professional exam case which has ended more than 1 month ago.
Masih baru melayari bahtera rumahtangga,
Menghirup manisnya nikmat bercinta,
Dengan seorang jejaka,
Yang langsung tidak pernah dikenali sebelumnya,
Melalui satu-satunya saluran perCINTAan yang HALAL di sisiNya...
Maybe dah basi, but I promised myself I would share my experience in professional exam with others, and late is better than never. To begin with, I don’t have a proper study group like others. We met as rare as once a month or so. I could not commit to any study group due to other ‘co-curricular’ programmes I needed to attend almost every weekend, in Kuantan and in KL. The nights during my weekdays are mostly devoted to usrah, at least 3 times per week. Near the exam, I only managed to parasitically attach with other study groups, special thanks I bid for their willingness to accept this ‘parasite’.
I had to do most preparation for my wedding myself. I had to find the caterer, I had to buy and do the hantaran, make the invitation card, order and buy the doorgifts, buy and order my wedding attire, and about a week before professional, I had to buy a new lace for my wedding attire because the tailor wrongly sewed the original lace. 3 days before the big exam day, I was still searching for a house to rent in Selayang area for us to stay after our wedding (with the hope that I’ll get a placement in Hospital Selayang). Indeed, preparing for the wedding was fun and pleasurable, but thinking about the approaching professional exam gave me bees in the stomach...
More than once, being a mere human, I was engulfed by stress; I felt afraid and unready. No matter how far we tried to run away from the exam, the clock kept ticking, the professional exam kept chasing us from second to second. When I was conquered by anxiety, I just cried & turn to Allah and recite the Holy Quran. And He never failed to console me. I remembered once, I cried to my fullest and randomly opened the Quran, this was the first verse which my eyes caught, a relief from Allah:
(This is Allah's Way) regarding those who deliver the Messages of Allah and who fear Him, and fear no one else than Allah. Allah is Sufficient as a Reckoner [33:39]
“(iaitu) orang-orang yang menyampaikan risalah-risalah Allah, mereka takut kepadaNya dan tidak merasa takut kepada siapapun selain kepada Allah. Dan cukuplah Allah sebagai pembuat perhitungan...”
Subhanallah, Thank You Allah...!
The weekend before the exam (21st & 22nd May), I had yet another programme which I have to attend. It was a decision which tested my tawakkal, priority, faith and trust in Allah. I know well that Allah had promised, “O you who believe! If you support (the cause of) Allah, He will support you and make your foothold firm”. But knowing and believing are two different entities. When you believe, you need to prove it. Just like a delusion, due to the strong belief, patient will act upon it.
So although my professional exam preparation was hardly even 50%, I braved myself to go to the programme, with all the books and notes brought along, together with my forever supportive soulmates – iman, solehah, and kak mirah. When other people was fast asleep, I read my orthopaedic notes, topics I encountered for the 1st time since Orthopaedics posting in 4th year – yup, 2 days before the exam! And subhanallah, among the topics read during the programme was those which came out in my clinical exam. Alhamdulillah. Innallaha laa yukhliful mi’aad. Allah never breaks His promise!
KUALA LUMPUR 23 Mei – Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam (JPA) mengumumkan pemansuhan semua jawatan kosong berkuat kuasa 1 Jun ini.
Berikutan keputusan tersebut semua urusan pengambilan dibekukan bermula 20 Mei hingga 31 Ogos.
Ketua Pengarah Perkhidmatan Awam, Datuk Seri Abu Bakar Abdullah berkata, keputusan itu dipersetujui dalam Mesyuarat Jawatankuasa Kabinet Mengenai Perjawatan dan Gaji Sektor Awam (JKK-MPGSA) yang dipengerusikan oleh Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak pada 6 Mei lalu.
Menurut beliau, pembekuan merangkumi semua kementerian dan Jabatan Persekutuan, Pejabat Setiausaha Kerajaan Negeri, Badan Berkanun Persekutuan dan Badan Berkanun Negeri.
Bagaimanapun, kata beliau, jawatan-jawatan pada gred kenaikan pangkat dan jawatan yang sedang dalam proses lantikan oleh pihak berkuasa melantik adalah dikecualikan.
‘‘Keputusan (pemansuhan) ini adalah selaras dengan langkah kerajaan untuk merasionalisasi dan mewujudkan perkhidmatan awam yang kejat,’’ katanya.
Beliau berkata demikian dalam satu pekeliling yang dikeluarkan kepada ketua setiausaha, ketua jabatan persekutuan, setiausaha kerajaan negeri, setiausaha suruhanjaya perkhidmatan, pihak berkuasa berkanun persekutuan/negeri dan pihak berkuasa tempatan.
Pekeliling itu diperoleh menerusi laman web JPA.
Abu Bakar menasihatkan semua agensi supaya tidak mengemukakan permohonan penstrukturan semula organisasi dan pengukuhan perjawatan dalam tempoh tersebut.
Katanya, jabatan itu juga akan melakukan auditan perjawatan secara komprehensif di setiap agensi kerajaan semasa pelaksanaan keputusan ini.
‘‘Sehubungan itu, semua pihak dipohon untuk memastikan pelaksanaan arahan ini dipatuhi dengan memberi kerjasama sepenuhnya kepada jabatan ini semasa pelaksanaan auditan perjawatan itu,’’ jelasnya.
admin@10thbatch : pekeliling ni melibatkan pengambilan doktor2 pelatih tak? sapa2 ada maklumat boleh la share..