10th Batch MBBS IIUM Blog

"Dr siapa yang tengok ni tadi? Oh, Dr Farhanah!"

Gulp. Telan air liur. Selama ni kalau patients panggil Dr, boleh lagi ckp, “Makcik, sy student je, belum jadi Dr lagi,” sambil tersengih...

Tp, bila yg panggil tu adalah Specialist sendiri, maka terkedulah seketika… lebih-lebih lagi depan private patients, takkan nak sengih-sengih ckp “Eh sy student lagi…” Jadi, tidak dapat tidak, muka pun diusahakan utk di‘control’ supaya kelihatan seprofessional yg mungkin.

Saat tu, baru tersedar.. org klate ckp ‘jetak’.. Seolah terkena renjatan elektrik. Tak lama lagi kita tak boleh dah berada di zon yg selesa. Tak lama lagi title DOCTOR tu bakal menggalaskan suatu tanggungjawab yg bukan sembarangan di atas bahu kita. Tanggungjawab yg melibatkan nyawa dan emosi manusia. Tanggungjawab yg sgt memerlukan keikhlasan, ketabahan, kekuatan, serta ketahanan mental, fizikal dan emosi yg kuat.

In the Ophthalmology Clinic...

My 1^st, good-looking, 17-year-old male patient complained of colour blindness which he just started to notice a year ago. But he wasn’t really sure until his doubt was answered 2 months back during JPJ test when he faced difficulty in eliciting the numbers during colour vision test.

Dr. KMK first explained briefly regarding the pathophysiology of the condition. The cells are there, but for some unknown reason, they are not functioning. But the cells are present.

The patient however, wanted to become a pilot. But because of the strict colour codings used for pilots in landing planes especially, it was not a safe choice.

So, Dr counseled both the patient and his mother on the choices he could alternatively take in pursuing his dreams.

"This colour blindness should not stop you from achieving what you dream of, from doing what you want to do, or from being what you want to be. There are however certain fields in which colour-coded instructions may cause you slight difficulties, and may even be harmful to you. But there are sooo many other courses and paths you probably have never even thought of.

Remember, this is not the end for you. But this is the beginning for you to open up your heart for a wider range of choices, opportunities which are perhaps better than what you initially targeted for. There’s a better fate out there which Allah has destined for you, and He thus made this colour blindness as a turning point to diverge you to achieve the path which He has chosen for you, the choice which He knows is best for you…Believe me, you are going towards something better. You just need to look at it positively"

Sang ibu dan anak mengangguk-angguk. Mungkin terkejut dan kagum dgn kebolehan Dr utk memberi motivasi yg begitu mengesankan.. Bukan patient je yg terkesan, 'Dr.Farhanah' yg tengah diri kat tepi tu pun sama-sama terkesima jugak.

Betul ckp Dr kan. Kadang-kadang kita tak dpt pilihan yg kita nak. Tp rupa-rupanya, Allah dah sediakan sesuatu yg jauh lebih baik utk kita, sebab sebagai Pencipta, tentulah Dia yg Maha Tahu what’s best for His creations. Mungkin kita suka sangat kat seseorang ni, tengok agama dia baik, keturunan dia baik, family dia baik.. Tapi sayangnya dia dah berpunya. Aduh, kecewa di hati hanya Allah yang memahami. Tapi kita tak tahu. Jodoh kita rupanya seseorg yg lebih baik dan lebih sesuai utk kita. Malah, dialah yg terbaik yg Allah dah taqdirkan utk kita. Sebab mcmana baik pun seseorang itu, tak semestinya yg terbaik utk kita, kan?

Aduh, ni contoh yg sangat jauh menyimpang dari tajuk sebenar ni. Ok, lupakan.

Masa Dr ckp mcm tu, berkobar-kobar rasa. Kalaulah satu hari nanti dpt jumpa ubat atau solution yg boleh ‘menghidupkan’ atau membangunkan cone cells kat retina yg mungkin sedang tidur atau tak aktif, dan boleh solve the problem of people with colour blindness, kan best. Mungkin boleh guna genetic engineering and correct the defect at the molecular level, sebab dia genetic kan. Wah, tingginya cita-cita cik kak ni. Tp, sebelum tu, kena fikir dua tiga empat kali dulu. Nak pakai tear drop kat mata sendiri pun tak lepas lagi. Entah kenapa fobia sgt. Mcmana nak jadi Ophthalmologist ni ye. Hmm...